The Lord gives, and the Lord takes away. Praise the name of Yahweh.

(Job 1:21b)

This post marks the death of a dream and ambition. One of a longing to grow our family. We have pursued natural conception. Explored the help of the medical community. Denied the extreme advancements of our day. Then began our walk through adoption. Yesterday, that walk ended.

Our dream of growing our family has died. The inability to meet in the middle being its cause. Governments not seeing eye to eye. 

God, You are sovereign and for this I am thankful. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. God I still praise Your Name - Yahweh! You alone knew what this would be. You alone prepared our hearts and our minds for this time. Your Grace has flooded this family. You are full of mercy. Thank you.

In our grief we stand knowing that HE is our Lord, our King, our Savior. HE has and will continue to sustain us.

Homemade People

This morning I read an amazing blog by Rachel Jankovic. She wrote about homemade people and the line that stuck out to me most was "You do not go home to hide from the world, you go home to change it." She doesn't talk about homeschooling, but talks about how we grow and learn. Her words put into a deeper persective of what goes on in our homes. What wonderful insight. I've thought about this - but not really.  I hope today that God will give me eyes to see just how our family learns and grows - what ways Lucas strives to earn acceptance, in what ways I strive to earn his. What ways we are already learned and found GRACE and peace.


Here is the link to the article if you would like to read it.

http://theresurgence.com/2011/11/18/homemade-people

The Fruit of The Spirit...

My child, eat honey, for it is good, and the honeycomb is sweet to the taste. In the same way, wisdom is sweet to your soul. If you find it, you will have a bright future, and your hopes will not be cut short.  (Proverbs 24:13-14 NLT)

A Bright Future....

I think we all long for a bright future for our children. I know I long for a bright future for myself and what I usually yearn for for me, I yearn tenfold for Lucas. I have seen the fruit of this verse above, in my life and in others. Hopes not cut short.

As much as I yearn for it though, I don't think that it is an easy verse to muster up the fruit of on my own. In fact, no matter how hard I try to teach wisdom to Lucas - it doesn't really work. I am now faced with a beautiful mystery. The mystery of how one obtains wisdom. 

Job 12:13 ...True wisdom and power are with God; counsel and understanding are his.

So, this morning I am reminded that as I begin my day - it should be in a posture of prayer, reliance and trust in Jesus. The control freak in me wants to begin the day in a strict routine of this and that and that - Praise God for the reminder. What a gift to be given to be able to trust in the only one who is trustworthy, good and for us - ALWAYS. I need to let go of my need to control and let the Spirit of God work in our home. Patience... Self Control.... Gentleness... Joy... Peace... Goodness... Faithfulness... Kindness... and most of all Love. Where these are... there is freedom... there is hope... there is wisdom... there is a bright future.

Thank you Jesus.

Once upon a time...

I don't know what is compelling me to write, but I look forward to the journey. And if you are reading this... I am glad for the company.

In the Beginning...
Today is March 5th, 2012. It is the first day of our new adventure. Day one of homeschooling Lucas. Am I nervous, excited, delighted - yup, but most of all... at peace. Lucas smiles at the snow and the thought that we can build a snow fort today and gang up on Dad when he gets home. I smile at the thought that he is excited to be home and hang out with his ma and pa. I have no idea what "work" we are going to get done today - but I am pumped to just spend the day with my little man.

I am reminded this morning of Paul's words: I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have recieved. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Ephesians 4:1-2 NIV. Life should be about sharing moments together, shouldn't it. About laughing, crying, fighting, smiling - loving. We haven't been given the chance to "be" with others just to ignore them - have we? We love because we were first loved. Praise God that we can love. And love even when it gets tough. I know I will need to be reminded daily of this verse. Thank God for the gift of His Son. Thank God for the gift of my son.